Okay, so ive been with this guy a year and a half, its been a bumpy road as we both suffer from depression but on a whole we are truly extremely happy together. 2 months ago we had a huge row and it ended things, after this we both agreed that we still loved and wanted each other so we agreed to take it slow and work things out. I must add her that i have a severe insecurity with masturbation and porn, it makes me feel not good enough and ugly. Well, anyway, during the six weeks we were taking things slow i caught him watching porn and masturbating, it hurt me but i understood that he was rechnically single so i couldnt really get mad about it. He ended everything. Everything in that moment, stopped.
It has now been two weeks and we havent seen each other, yet we have spoke every day to which mostly has been him sending the first message. I have expressed and expressed my want and desire to be with him and that i do still love him and he has said that he feels the same. He is currently spending time with family across the country to try and clear his head but is very much keeping me at an arms length. He refuses to talk about the break up with me claiming that it is too hard for him and he cant do it, yet he also refuses to talk or want me to talk about our possible future together and when ever i mention an us he gets defensive.
I fully trust him and know that he is not sleeping or communicating with other people during this time.
What i really want to know is do you think he does still really love me and want to be with me or is he must trying to let me down gently without the responsibility for my heart break?
Any help would be great because im feeling extremely lost right now.